Endless Cycles

It's funny...  I have not kept up with this blog at all, and I have been thinking almost daily for a month or so that I really want to start...  Yet, as I sit here, with topics overflowing my brain , I'm actually nervous to start.  So I'll start with rambling...  I have actually thought about all of the topics I wanted to cover and how I would do it for quite awhile now, but now that I'm looking at the screen, there doesn't seem to be a way to organize any of it.  I guess the only way to start anything is from the beginning, right?

The reason I decided I need to start at this again is that I dream A LOT.  Some nights I don't feel like I've slept at all because I've spent all night thinking so much in my dreams.  Some nights, I actually don't sleep at all because of the constant rambling thoughts of my consciousness...  So, my first objective is to get all this crap outta my head!  I have a lot of new things going on in my life.  Life is always changing and presenting new objectives and obstacles to clutter my brain.  I think a major one is always moolah.  Seems like no matter what I do, there just isn't enough.  That then leads to finding a place and moving, which is a necessity, and still just out of reach.  There is lots of talk of a wedding in my future, and that comes with ring shopping and lots of planning already going on in my already overflowing mind.  There is also the new job.  The new tasks don't quite focus all of my thoughts either, resulting in NPR, music, or an audio book in my ear while I tackle them.  That in itself worries me in that I will eventually get bored and feel like I have again aimed too low in my job search, which cycles back to money.

When did life start revolving around money?  Everything takes money.  EVERYTHING.  We can't even go anywhere anymore without thinking about if it'll be worth the gasoline it'll take to get there.  With my new job, I got a decent raise, however I drive 45 minutes to get there.  So much for a raise.  If  I could actually have that raise, I could maybe save enough to move closer.  All an endless cycle.  For now, a money tree would obviously be the most helpful...  anyone know where to buy those?  Oh wait...  I need money for that.